Nearly there

It’s been a long almost four weeks.

Daddy bear returns to the country later this week, it’s been a long month. Long. Solo parenting is hard. The nights are hard. There hasn’t been a single moment where I’ve felt like I’ve got control over anything, it’s all been one mass scramble to make life happen. The house is a tip! However we’ve made it out the house washed, dressed and fed everyday…and I learnt how to make fish fingers from scratch so all is good.

My sister stayed over the other night and I was looking back through photos that I’ve taken since Jon left…so much has happened and my right hand man has changed and grown up a lot.

He hasn’t handled the whole “daddy’s suddenly gone’ thing very well. I didn’t think he’d notice, but he has been very unsettled the whole time, not helped by the fact that the night Jon left we were in hospital with my right hand man as he needed to have an infected abscess drained. The daughter, thankfully has been an absolute superstar, it’s fair to say we’ve supported each other through the past few weeks, I’m incredibly proud of her. There’s a lot she’s had to process, and she’s been fantastic.

In between my right hand man being unsettled, bad nights sleep, super clinginess, teething, and the abscess, he has been amazing me! He’s becoming more and more cheeky by the day, he is exploring more, and every day I see him learning a new skill. There really isn’t anything he can’t do. Just this morning I saw him discover a way he could pick up a crumb with his left arm and eat it…who needs pincer movement?!?!

I knew the children would amaze me and grow so much whilst Jon was away, a lot happens in a month in the lives of kids, I just wasn’t expecting it to look the way it has! If I reflect on what they’ve achieved over the past month too much I’ll cry with joy, so I’m not doing!!

This has been so hard. I’m incredibly glad it’s nearly over, although it still doesn’t feel like he’s nearly back, I don’t think I’ll breathe that sigh of relief until I’ve wrapped my arms around him. Hurry up and see your children again Daddy bear! They’re epic.

P.S. Thank you so much to everyone who has helped and been such a great support whilst he’s been away, those who brought food, hugs, and smiles, those who looked after the children so I could rest, those who let me vent at them when I was struggling, and those who’ve made me laugh, you’re all legends.